hey yall long time no hear, i got off work early tonight sos i thought i better write and let you know that I have not slipped in to the abyss and dissapeared for ever, though I have been having a shit week, for some reason I have been reflecting on my relationship with dee and the hows and whys and where fores of it all and found myself hating dannielle even more than before to the point where I thought i might actually do something I might regret! Logic has prevailed however and here I sit trying to get my head together, I am surrounded by women some good some bad.... it seems that I either am not interested in them or i simply cant have them!!
take kim for example, shes gorgeous in every way she has a smile that makes me feel like jumping over the table and kissing her, her personality is amazing she doesnt have to do anything but be near me and im lost completely... I have had a massive crush on her for years and i know that I cant have her and it frustrates me no end.
I cant have her because she is my mates sister and shes one of the group and I dont really think that shed wnat me back anyway! but at parties where the two single ones amid all the cpls, it would make sense fr us to be together lol i like her friends she likes mine we all get along and like the same things its rediculous~! and then theres these chicks who think that I should fall over backwards for them and I cant tell them enough that I only want to be friends, they assume that I must be looking for a realtionship as much as they are and that If I just looked at it that way id understand! wrong, One even went to a psychic to see if i was the man of her dreams! thankfully she said no, dunno what would have happened if shed said yes he is..........
what am I gunna do?